Monday, November 3, 2008

i hate this.....

no.
i didnt say no.
i grabbed the bowl and sucked in.
i held.
i blowed.
i glossed my eyes.
i didnt say no.

yes.
i said yes.
i made a line and sniffed it in.
i cried.
i stared.
i fell.
i said yes.

why.
i didnt say why.
i sat in basements and never questioned.
i laughed.
i smiled.
i cried.
i didnt say why.

help.
i cried for help.
i gave myself away in a classroom.
i didnt think.
i sat in an office.
i called my parents.
my cry for help.


okay okay.
so this is like the last one. i have a hard time putting out any other feelings then the ones from my drug use. that time period, even if it was for two months, left an extreme impression on my life. i gotta learn how to let that go.

2 comments:

DaydreamWanderer said...

i like it. the different paragraphs start off with 4 different, single words. the emphasis on those words really stick out and help with describing the emotions u were going through.

crystal said...

don't worry - they're good poems
you do a good job at expressing your emotions here :)
and much much more clear then my poem haha lol